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I have a new job. I love this job...other than being a wife and mom... I work for the special ed department at Harris Elm...and I absolutley love it!!! I work with some of the best kids. They are very special! I work with some pretty awesome people as well. We have some pretty fun times..and some very very hard times but in the end its all worh it. It takes a person with love and kindness and lots of patience to work with children like them...they just need someone who cares to help....help them get the education they deserve. They learn...just slower than most...no..slower than some. We go on field trips..and go bowling once a month and its a lot of fun!!!! I wouldnt trade my job for the world! I am thankful for it!!!

confessions...for a healthier life

i want to start a post about confessions. i feel like this may help me feel better and maybe i will be forgiven for some of the wrongs that i have done,,,although i know i really need to do this in church i know God wil know that i am doing my best.  Confession 1: I have not been the best mom that i know i can be. I dont spend enough time doing activities with my boys like i should, especially since i wont get as much time with them now after school starts back, and i will be working. We go swimming with them and we go to the golfcourse with them but its still not enough in my opinion, and i feel bad. i know they enjoy the times that we spend together as a family, as well as I do, but i know life is too short to sit around and do nothing, so i made a promise to spend more FAMILY time, before shcool goes back!!!!  Kids grow up way too fast and time flies by and is gone before you know it>>>>and i love my boys so i want every minute i can get with them,,,and i want to cherish them!!!                             *lovemyboys*                      

Confession 2: i have done things i am not proud of. I am trying very hard to change that. I dont want to be that person anymore. I am trying to be a better person   I have lied and I dont want to lie anymore either. i want to be a truthful and honest person. lying gets you nowhere. I dont know why i let myself get to that point but i dont want to be there anymore. i from now on have decided to be the most honest and truthful as i can be. i am tired of having to lie and its not necissarily to other peopl but to myself and i am not happy with the person i have become and the person i have molded myself to be because i try to make my husband always happy . theres nothing wrong with making him happy but i have to be happy as well and until i am happy i cant make him or anyone else happy. i am working hard on making myself happy and its getting better for me   even if its little things here and there things are getting better. i finally got a new job that i absolutley love and have always wanted. i know thats a start   and i will feel better because i know i can afford things better  not that i am gonna just go buy stuff but i will finally have money left over after bills are paid and i can let my kids have a better christmas and just feel better about myself and my life.    life isnt always easy and its only what you make of it and i havent made the best choices but i am learning from the mistakes i have made and moving on to a healthier life!

my best friend

my best friend is someone who knows me well and can read my mind before i even speak>>>my best friend is the one person who has been there for me through everything and hasnt judged me one bit. my best friend laughs at the stupidest things with me even if they arent funny to anyone else. my best friend is my sister, Cathy. she is the bestest friend i could ever have. she is my rock when im sad, she is the one person who wil give advice>>even when i dont want to hear it cus more than likely its the truth lol, she thinks like i do! i swear sometimes we share a brain hahah  the only thing i hate is that she is miles away but yet always just a phone call away  i love her very much  she is the best sister anyone could ask for. i am very blessed to have her in my life and as my sis.  we have had some of the best times together and every memory i have i truly cherish!  i love you cathy!!!!