i want to start a post about confessions. i feel like this may help me feel better and maybe i will be forgiven for some of the wrongs that i have done,,,although i know i really need to do this in church i know God wil know that i am doing my best. Confession 1: I have not been the best mom that i know i can be. I dont spend enough time doing activities with my boys like i should, especially since i wont get as much time with them now after school starts back, and i will be working. We go swimming with them and we go to the golfcourse with them but its still not enough in my opinion, and i feel bad. i know they enjoy the times that we spend together as a family, as well as I do, but i know life is too short to sit around and do nothing, so i made a promise to spend more FAMILY time, before shcool goes back!!!! Kids grow up way too fast and time flies by and is gone before you know it>>>>and i love my boys so i want every minute i can get with them,,,and i want to cherish them!!! *lovemyboys*
Confession 2: i have done things i am not proud of. I am trying very hard to change that. I dont want to be that person anymore. I am trying to be a better person I have lied and I dont want to lie anymore either. i want to be a truthful and honest person. lying gets you nowhere. I dont know why i let myself get to that point but i dont want to be there anymore. i from now on have decided to be the most honest and truthful as i can be. i am tired of having to lie and its not necissarily to other peopl but to myself and i am not happy with the person i have become and the person i have molded myself to be because i try to make my husband always happy . theres nothing wrong with making him happy but i have to be happy as well and until i am happy i cant make him or anyone else happy. i am working hard on making myself happy and its getting better for me even if its little things here and there things are getting better. i finally got a new job that i absolutley love and have always wanted. i know thats a start and i will feel better because i know i can afford things better not that i am gonna just go buy stuff but i will finally have money left over after bills are paid and i can let my kids have a better christmas and just feel better about myself and my life. life isnt always easy and its only what you make of it and i havent made the best choices but i am learning from the mistakes i have made and moving on to a healthier life!
